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31 October 2003
hymn
today, i sing a hymn.
hymn to all you boys and girls, but mostly girls. you people, who dare to love. dare, knowing that we all are mortal. and worse off, we are suddenly mortal. we make plans, we put all our happiness, all the meaning of our life, all that we have to live for, on stake, for this one person, one love, one soul, the thin line of light in a darkness of hostile universe, in a full knowledge - and deep down we all know, despite of denial, despite of deliberate blindness, that we all are mortal at any minute chosen by cold and indifferent gods - i sing a hymn for all of us brave enough to gamble it all, despite the chances, despite the absolute assurance of a broken heart and unstoppable tears, for all these wonderful souls who still dare to love.
bless you. protect your loved ones, keep them from harm and destruction, save them from forces of chaos and deliver them to painless death in their sleep one day many decades away from now. holding each other, clinging to each other. please, please, don't let them know my pain, spare them from this devastating lot, deliver them to ripe pastures, let them avoid emptiness after tasting happiness of mutual unbearable love. and if, only in rare case if, one of them has to die before another, make them ready, let them exhaust their magic moments together, let them know the heights and the lows of knowing each other more than mere mortals are supposed to, let them understand, absorb and cherish what they have, and understand, absorb and cherish the necessity of one of them going away while other is still awake, alive and capable of feelings.
spare them my fate, pretty please?